'Gurr' and other unseemly sounds.

......Brain hurts. After talking with friends, I was convinced that men are just incapable of saying what they mean, and spoke again to my (ex?) bf. Then I figured out that our life goals may be way off from each other. He wants kids, the regular settled down life; I well am not ready for all that. To find all this out years after the fact is well disheartening. I don't know if this will work. Doubt is never kind to me :(

In other news I won't be able to see a therapist till February, and a consultation to get referred to an endocrinologist till May. Owwch. Was hoping for faster results. But at least I'm being helpful and trying to get him a free car. Maybe the good karma will rub off.